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Hello, everyone. Making this video has been quite challenging. I've kept promising to provide an update on my ongoing medical issues, but it's been a struggle emotionally and physically. The delay stems from various factors: difficulties with the caregiver agency, worsening health conditions, and sheer exhaustion from trying to survive. Part of me is terrified to open up about my vulnerabilities. However, I realize that if I don't ask for help, I won't receive it. Those of you who know me know that I usually can make speech happen despite my non-verbal autism with a script. I am in such a state that this is not possible. So I am using my AAC.
Currently, I'm embroiled in a legal battle with the caregiver agency, which adds to the stress and financial strain. Finding a new agency willing to meet my complex needs is a lengthy process, made worse by a shortage of caregivers and the low wages in the industry. Despite previous attempts to address the issue legally, the agency continues to deny care using legal loopholes, leaving me in a precarious situation, especially as I approach surgery. The most recent hearing on this matter was a few days ago and there will not be further progress before my surgery. The good news of this is that everyone knows I am in the legal and moral right. There will be a national review of everyone in this program. Every single person on this waiver needing a caregiver will have an audit to ensure they are getting their needs met. They will also be auditing those who died during the pandemic to see if other agencies are killing people. The bad news is this takes time and the legal loopholes being used aren't going away anytime soon. Legal change takes a lot of time and steps and the agency is not doing their job or admitting they cannot. I cannot stop fighting for care and change agencies hoping to get care without having care. It is a demoralizing and frustrating experience but I have a right to my basic needs being met. I deserve to eat every day, I deserve to be clean, I deserve to have clean clothes, and I deserve dignity and to be treated as a human.
During the pandemic, my medical challenges have been overwhelming. From multiple melanoma diagnoses to a wheelchair malfunction that resulted in severe injuries including new breaks in my spine, the past few years have been a relentless struggle. Compounding these issues is untreated internal bleeding, exacerbated by the pandemic's impact on medical care. Now, I face abdominal surgery without a caregiver, adding to the urgency of my situation. I have had internal bleeding since the start of the pandemic, surviving via transfusions. Now my doctors think it is cancer and I am out of ability to wait for proper support. The combination of injury and the side effects of my already diagnosed cancers has me in a very fragile place physically. The surgery will include a complete hysterectomy and exploration of my abdominal cavity to see what the heck that thing over there is. The delays were not desired by myself or my doctors but the hospitals literally did not have a bed for me in the ICU where I will be guaranteed some time after.
To cope, I've compiled a list of essential items I need for daily living. These include practical necessities like a mini-fridge and microwave for easier access to food, as well as personal hygiene items like an electric scrub brush and towels. Additionally, I require a suitable workspace so I can work and earn an income, as my current setup requires that I twist my spine awkwardly to use it. I didn't have to do that before the wheelchair broke my back but I can't sit the same way I used to. The window coverings will allow the removal of the very dirty blankets that give me some privacy. The clothing, towels, and bedding are needed as I don't have anything left to clean myself with. I haven't had clean clothes in 5 years. Between the flood that occurred during this time and the wear and tear on what survived I only own two skirts and a dress that doesn't fit. Everything is full of grime and holes.
Financial assistance is also crucial, primarily for veterinary expenses and groceries. While I've considered setting up a GoFundMe, I prefer direct assistance to avoid unnecessary transactional layers. Any help, whether through direct payments or gift cards, would be immensely appreciated and would significantly alleviate my current struggles. I need 200 dollars paid directly to the vet for the veterinarian for Czernobog's outstanding ear infection care and vaccination. I would like to give the person paying the information to pay the veterinarian directly. I need 150 dollars for his sterilization and microchipping. For groceries, I am less certain about how much I need and would prefer to use Instacart gift cards, as this is how I get food. I am aware many will suggest I try Walmart grocery delivery. I have. They sent me a plastic chest, put me in the ER by sending me food I have airborne anaphylaxis to instead of what I ordered, and then tried to keep the money. I got a refund but they will not let me shop online and I do not want to risk being hospitalized for their bad decisions again.
Lastly, I want to emphasize that this isn't just about immediate relief; these items will serve me well in the long term, providing stability and support for years to come. I find it illogical to go through ten extra steps for a gofundme when I can just ask for someone to call the veterinarian, to give me the gift card I would buy anyway, and then I do not have to ask for the extra fees to be covered. If you're unable to assist directly, please consider sharing this video with others who may be able to help. Thank you for your support and understanding during this challenging time. If you have questions or if something needs clarification please ask. The link to the Amazon wishlist is in my profile.